Do you believe in coincidences? I don’t. I have felt that many of those things that happen are more of a “God moment” than a simple coincidence. Let me explain.
I told you yesterday that I was not having a great day. I have been struggling with what to write about, and wondered if I should just quit. I went to bed with that on my mind. I tossed and turned. And then I decided to count my blessings instead of sheep.
I started with my kids. Then I went through and named each member of my family. I thought of each person, and thanked God for the role they have played in my life. I thought about the joy they have brought to my life, their unique qualities, and the blessings in the life. I also thought about their struggles. I prayed for financial concerns, mental and emotional struggles, and broken relationships. I asked God for his healing hand. I prayed that they each felt the love and joy that they have brought to my life.
And then I thought about my blog. I thought about how I promised God when I started this blog, that it would be my way of honoring him. I thought about how I have been trying to write from my head, instead of listening for his voice and writing from my heart. I told him:
“If you still want me to write, I will. If you still have something you want me to say, I will listen.”
As I drifted off to sleep, I moved on from my family to my friends. I named each of those people who are my “family by choice”. I thought of each of you. I prayed for you. I thanked God for each and everyone of you.
This morning, an amazing thing happened. I had so many ideas for upcoming blogs, I actually had to take out paper and make a list. I suddenly realized that God was filling my head and my heart again. When I gave it back to Him, God gave me a new voice. His voice. He told me, in his way, that somewhere out there, there is someone who needs to hear from Him. You can only imagine how I am humbled today.
So today, I am thanking God for hearing me. I am thanking Him for talking to me. And I am praying that I am worthy of His words.